Written by the seams, messages encrypted within dreams, I keep waking up with no answers.
My site has been down for a month due to a malicious script loaded on. In order to get rid of it, I deleted everything. Good thing I had a backup of the mysql database for my blog. I should have restored it immediately but I was running into some problems and then got sidetracked. So finally the site is back up.
Luck hasn’t been on my side lately. Earlier this morning my secondary hard drive became corrupted out of the blue. The bad thing at the moment is that I don’t have backups of all the pictures I took. I’m working on a way to retrieve the data back, memories that I can’t recreate.
In my mind I can’t find solace. Funny thing is school is over for me for the time being, yet when I’m asleep I still have dreams about being in school. Not great dreams either, more like still feeling lost. Exams that I have not prepared for, I open the books but I can’t understand anything written.
Like the weather starting our freshman year during the school’s matriculation ceremony, heavy rain casted its downpours upon Nickerson Field for the Commencement Ceremony. I guess the rain served as the last obstacle that many of us new graduates had to face before we could escape the school’s gripe. Looking back at pictures it looks like only half of the expected graduates showed up for the ceremony. I’d say that those who stayed in to keep dry were smart, but I’m glad I was in the rain with my friends and the others who were willing to stand in the rain.
It wasn’t until hearing the commencement speaker’s message and hearing rain drops hit the ground that some clarity was brought to my mind.
It’s a fleeting feeling that anchors the soul, drowning the senses. The surface is too far to reach for as the crushing waves pulls me down. As I stared at the bottom of the sea a, I can begin to see a glimpse of light piercing through within the depths of darkness.
I was cleaning out my desk in preparation for packing and saw that I had saved some fortune cookie messages.
-A lifestyle is what you pay for; a life is what pays you.
-You will hear pleasant news.
I still need a job! I’m still contining to put off on writing a real reflection…