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In reality, it was nothing more than a fleeting dream…

2005 is coming to a close. This year, like many others has its share of stories to be told. My year actually has some stories of its own. As everything unfolded, I learned more about myself this year and like I’ve stated before my outlook on my life has changed for the better. I sort of know what I want now, the issue is just going after it. I still don’t know the direction I’m heading in though, but for now I’ll just wander.

There’s a single thought in my mind that’s been looming over for the past week and continues now, although it doesn’t really trouble me much. It’s my regret that I wasn’t able to confront it as the year draws to a close. I’ll find my resolve soon.

For those who have commented about the emptiness of my facial expressions and tones, I ensure you that I’ve made some progress this year. Believe it or not, I am smiling on the inside, still working on the outside. I just haven’t stared at my reflection long enough to notice. Yeah, I’m not afraid of making fun of myself.

I have my New Years resolution set in my mind, something that I’ll make every attempt to hold true in my heart and mind. I’m heading with a group of friends to see the ball drop in Times Square, NY to celebrate the New Year.

Here’s to 2006, let’s make it more interesting!

I guess I’ll never know…

An answer so close, but yet still too far to grasp.

I’ll admit that I’m much more of a pessimist than an optimist. My rationale for the subtle negativity is to prevent myself in walking into a situation blindly. I want to be able to account for all possible outcomes that an event can present. The naive optimist can fall. However, there is one factor that I use to neglect, life’s uncertainty principle. I guess everything is uncertain until we go for it.

Most people’s regrets come from the struggles between our reality versus our dreams and what we choose to strive for.
Reality: what we don’t have and have.
Dreams: what we want, but can’t possibly achieve.

Many people would advise to live your life with no regrets, but I question if the majority of the population can live to that standard.

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
-Alexander Graham Bell

I regret that I can’t finish this thought completely for the time being. I’ll edit it later.

If you could redo everything again, without the knowledge of your former self, would you inadvertly make the same choices and walk the same path? By making the same choices over and over, is it possible to really be making the choice, or is it an illusion? The very image of ourselves are the result of the sum of our choices in life’s equation, so make them important.

If you actually did read and understand this, then I dare you to reflect back and say if you’re satisfied with all of the choices you have made. Did you become the person you wanted to be?

…I guess someday, I’ll write actual entries.