2005

“I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it. I don’t believe it makes me real.” - Sum 41

2005 is coming to a close. This year, like many others has its share of stories to be told. My year actually has some stories of its own. As everything unfolded, I learned more about myself this year and like I’ve stated before my outlook on my life has changed for the better. I sort of know what I want now, the issue is just going after it. I still don’t know the direction I’m heading in though, but for now I’ll just wander.

There’s a single thought in my mind that’s been looming over for the past week and continues now, although it doesn’t really trouble me much. It’s my regret that I wasn’t able to confront it as the year draws to a close. I’ll find my resolve soon.

For those who have commented about the emptiness of my facial expressions and tones, I ensure you that I’ve made some progress this year. Believe it or not, I am smiling on the inside, still working on the outside. I just haven’t stared at my reflection long enough to notice. Yeah, I’m not afraid of making fun of myself.

I have my New Years resolution set in my mind, something that I’ll make every attempt to hold true in my heart and mind. I’m heading with a group of friends to see the ball drop in Times Square, NY to celebrate the New Year.

Here’s to 2006, let’s make it more interesting!